Delusional Angels

Delusional angels with power to choose death for others or so it seems they only hasten the death of illusion for others and extend their own. Killing souls unlike their own wallowing in power false not knowing shadow from sun. Hiding self from self barking at those who feed wounded lips torn ears. Starving spirits […]

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I have seen the truth,

or half-seen it,

running next to me

beyond the bushes speeding past.

Keeping pace,

allowing only glimpses

here and there,

like a feral child

or predator.

I am afraid I will never see it clearly,

but fear facing it without

dark glasses or nature between us.


it breaks through the bushes

where nature is thin

and affords less protection

from what I most fear and desire.

Then it is too close

and I sense rather than see

a huge muscular beast

as it passes between my eyes

and the road ahead.

Then it is gone,

rushing next to me again

with the blurred veil of nature

speeding toward my past.

I once saw a whale under the ice,

at least it seemed a whale,

although indistinct. There was

a sense of danger as though it

might at any moment crash upwards

and crush me without pity.

Fear and curiosity pinned me

and I could not turn away

until I remembered it was lunchtime.


William E. Rushman, August 1998

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Batter My Heart

Batter my heart, three-personed God; for you
as yet but knock, breathe, shine, and seek to mend.
That I may rise and stand, o’erthrow me and bend
your force to break, blow, burn and make me new.
I, like an usurped town, to another due,
labor to admit you, but, oh, to no end;
reason, your viceroy in me, me should defend,
but is captived and proves weak or untrue.
Yet dearly I love you and would be loved fain,
but am betrothed unto your enemy:
divorce me, untie or break that knot again,
take me to you, imprison me, for I,
except you enthrall me, never shall be free,
nor ever chaste, except you ravish me.

John Donne


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